I’ve realized that I don’t need this anymore. If I need to talk, I’ll talk to my friends. If I need to vent, I’ll go to them. That’s how it should be.
If you still check my page every now and then, I guess I’ll never know. I guess that means you still care? Another thing I’ll never know. The way you talked made it seem so believable, but in the back of my head I knew it was all a lie, so I’m okay with it.
I wish things were different with a lot of people….A LOT of people. My mom, my grandaddy who past away nearly 5 years ago, Abby, Tyler, Kayse, Danielle, Matt, Colby…and maybe even Nickey….only a little bit though.
I’ve learned life doesn’t go the way you plan, and you have to make the best hand out of the cards that you’re given. Don’t expect anything, because it’ll only leave you with disappointment. Hope for the best, but prepare for the worst.
I’m learning to forgive myself for everything and I’m trying to move on from it all. I just…forgot how it works. I’m reserved, don’t know how to express myself, don’t know what to say at times…a lot of times. And if it doesn’t work out, I’m sure ill be hurt and it’ll be awkward, not because I make it awkward though, because he will, but at least I tried and I eventually got what I wanted in an…altered type of way.
I just want to be happy. And I’m doing what makes me happy and not giving a damn about anyone else because I’ve been doing that for far to long and it only made my depression worse.
If someone wants to be in my life, they’ll make sure they are. If not, I honestly don’t care. What a beautiful piece of realization.
